Me, Myself and I

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

New Colors.

New day with bright new colors. I've been thinking a lot about colors and how they correspond with our emotions within ourselves. How many times do we REALLY know exactly what we are feeling? Emotions are hard to pinpoint, but by playing this "what color are you?" game with Kay has been really helpful. Here is the negative/positive examples for each color that I use:

Orange: Confusion, regarding boundaries with relationships, this is where we sponge other peoples emotions, also an indication of anger, blocked creativity. Accepting, clarity about boundaries in relationships as well as clarity about responsibility.
: Judgment, fear, worrying about what others think of me, not feeling good enough, low will to live./Joy, energy, trust, security, warmth, self-esteem, open to new possibilities, new experiences, love, nurturing or nourishment.
Green: Betrayal, sadness, desperately wanting love and approval. Green has to do with the heart./Feelings of approval or love, acceptance, healing and forgiveness
Blue: Blocked self-expression, unexpressed sadness, misuse of will, resentment, mourning or grief./ Freedom of self-expression, open communication, will center, having my will be in harmony with God's will.
Purple: God and Spiritual things/ Connectedness to God, feeling open to capacity to receive information from spiritual sources. The color of royalty or nobility

There are a lot more colors and definitions but these are just a few to get you started. So if you are ever having a confusing day and not quite sure what to do, think of a color, maybe even a shape and give to your Maker. God cares about me, that means he cares about you. Believe.

Sunday, November 14, 2010


Ahhh. So thinking about everything going on in my life right now and it's really hard to find humor when life is messing with you and turning everything into a nightmare. I love to laugh. More than anything. But when you are sitting all alone at lunch, in a teachers classroom because you have no caring friends and starving but not wanting to go eat, nothing seems funny. I want to have a wish to truly laugh everyday. But so so good. I am consistently fighting myself to decide whether I should entertain myself, or get things done that I need to. Why can't there ever be an easy answer? Why can't it just turn into rainbows. lollipops. sunshine. "It takes the rain to know the sun." That has been my motto for these hard times, but there also gets to a point where you don't want to be wet anymore. OhhhOOhh what should I do???

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Im not morbid. ha

  • "Time is a great teacher, but unfortunately it kills all its pupils."
  • "Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway."
  • “It’s not that I’m afraid to die, I just don’t want to be there when it happens.”
  • “A grave is a place where the dead are laid to await the coming of the medical student.”
  • “If your time hasn’t come, not even a doctor can kill you.”
  • “Either he’s dead or my watch has stopped.”
  • “They say such nice things about people at their funerals that it makes me sad that I’m going to miss mine by just a few days.”
  • “My grandmother was a very tough woman. She buried three husbands and two of them were just napping.”

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Donate a Volunteer

Yesterday I went to donate my blood and a lot of funny things happened! When I got there, (I originally went only as a volunteer) I ended up reading the poster, packet and everything else you needed to read before you donated. Suddenly my stomach started flipping and heart started pounding like sacrament on fast Sunday. I was supposed to donate my blood! I retrieved my license from the car (photo i.d.) and started the process. An American Red cross worker took me behind a booth to get me registered. I visualized myself starting to just scream at the top of my lungs and burst out laughing. Can you picture it? Everyone calmly having their blood donated when suddenly silence is broken by a crazy scream from a girl in the 'registration booth.' HAHAHAHA Donate blood. Laugh your heart out :)

Monday, November 8, 2010

Funniest Thing For Today.

This is a post for those who might be thinking about the awful fact that they have gotten into a car accident and are now trying to sell their car. DO NOT have a picture of your car, upside down, ready for sale. I burst out laughing when I saw this and I hope it made someone else's day as well. :)

Saturday, November 6, 2010


Sometimes when I am thinking about funny things, I will randomly burst out laughing and it seems like everyone will turn and see what I think is so entertaining. When it turns out that I am laughing about something I imagined, it's always an interesting response that happens! :) Something funny I thought about. ANYTIME FITNESS. A gym in my hometown, is it always open or is Anytime Fitness only open between 8-5? :) Something else: Kaya Hartley. She is sooo funny. When I told her to not do drugs when she was leaving once, she replied in a gruff voice, "Don't tell me what to do!" She's crazy and I love her.

Monday, November 1, 2010

The Funny Things I see...

My WHAT IF Journal

I was telling Kaya about all the funny things that I imagine and that go on in my head and she kindly suggested to write them all down. This led to blogging all the funny things. So I guess, from now on, this will be my WHAT IF journal :) :)