Loooonng.

About a month back, I got a blessing from my Father.
Which helped a lot.
One thing he mentioned was to: "Live day to day, not in the future."
And let me tell you all something...
That is much easier said than done.

I wake up everyone morning at 5:30am.
(5:40 with the snooze.)
I get ready, run to catch the bus, walk 1/4 a mile to work
then WORK,
What a weird word and concept.
WORK.
It kind of leaves a nasty taste in your mouth, doesn't it?

Everyone I work with has a story.
No one is LDS.
Except me.
Imagine that, right in Provo, UT
They think they're funny, I think they're pervs..
But one thing I like are their hearts.
Not in a creepy doctor way, but in a spiritual eye way

All of us have been born with Christs love.
Some of us show that,
while others have hidden, thrown away or misplaced theirs.
I don't know what I'm supposed to be learning.
I don't know why everyone at work calls me...
JIFFYPOP.
That's right, the popcorn.

(I guess they think they're funny)
But I guess this random blog post is to relieve some thoughts
some thoughts of annoyance
of loneliness
of pathetic-ness (is that even a word?)
Some days are harder than others,
but try to shine your light.
The light of Christ....

Life Is Short

29,445 More days until I am 100 years old.
Most likely, I will be dead before then.
That's it.
That's all the time I have.

Treat every moment as if it's your last.
Tell those you love how you feel.
Stand up for yourself.
Hug your family.
Forgive and forget.

You never know when it's your time to go.
I have less than 29,445 days to become who I am.
Today,
I'm going to start living.

Sunday Sounds

I love waking up and feeling the Sunday feeling.
Hearing the sunday silence.
Smelling.. well hopefully something yummy.
Origin: "The day of the Sun."
The son of God.

From lds.org...
"The Sabbath is the Lord's day, set apart each week for rest and worship. In Old Testament times, God's covenant people observed the Sabbath on the seventh day of the week because God rested on the seventh day when He had created the earth. After the Resurrection of Jesus Christ, which occurred on the first day of the week, the Lord's disciples began observing the Sabbath on the first day of the week, Sunday"

Some of my favorite Sunday activities:

-Talk to my family/friends on phone or Skype

-Write letters to loved ones

-Bake 

-Read/listen to conference talks

-Take a nap

-Read a book

-Go for a walk

-Relax......

My Bucket is Full

Inspired by a dear friend.

I've always loved the idea of having a bucket list.

Something that is attainable and believable. 

On August 2, 2010... KayKay and I made our BL's.

And this is/was mine:

-Go to all the LDS temples in the world

-Get kissed in the rain

-Marry my soulmate for eternity

-Meet the Pope

-Swim with dolphins

-See a duckbill platypus

-Get a puppy as a present (with a big red bow)

-Adopt children.

-Ride a giraffe

-Raise a chicken egg

-Catch a fish with my bare hands

-Donate my blood (DID it! Nov 2010)

-Have a child be named after me

-Ride on a train

-See the white house in Washington D.C.

-Touch a corpse

Isn't it interesting the things that are important to us at certain times in our lives?! I love thinking about it.

What kind of things are on your bucket list?!

Fall Back.

It's FALL!.

I hadn't realized how much I'd missed photography,

until I pulled out the camera.

Ohhhh yeaaahhhh....

Where I seem to ALWAYS be waiting.

No leaves,  no fun.

The prettiest house on the block. 

Time for a romantic walk...

Discourage.ment.

You are beautiful, no matter what they say.
Yes, words...can't bring you down.
Don't you bring me down today.

Yucky weekend.
Highlight = seeing Obnette.
Downside = getting sick.

I talked to my parents a lot today.
That always helps.
Except one little thing...
My Dad warned me that I'm showing signs of depression.

Is it just because of this time of year?
Last year around this time... I was a wreck.
Crying constantly.
Emotional rollar-coaster.

It's not like my life is hard.
Physically,
Spritually,
Mentally... I can handle it.

But then comes the BiG "E"...
emotionally.

pfffft.
I wanna figure this out!
And quickly.
Because I hate feeling this way.

And I don't hate a lot of things..

Stand up 8

"Fall down seven times, stand up eight"

This proverb has stuck with me throughout my entire life. 

What a great example.

Today while I was blog stalking, I came across a cancer patients blog.

A girl my age.

Reading through her posts was like an awakening for my own life. 

I cried and cried while reading and felt almost ridiculous cause I didn't even know this girl.

But I understood her struggles.

No, I don't have cancer.

But I've felt pain.

I've broken bones.

I've lost loved ones.

I've gone through trials.

I haven't wanted to wake up in the morning.

"Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning"

Life is tough.

Life is unsatisfying at times.

Life is complicated.

Life is lonely.

Life is sweet.

Life is full.

Life is a dream.

Life is growth.

Life is forgiveness.

Life is trials.

Life is JOY.

Life is.

A lot on my mind

There has been so much on my mind lately.

And lets face it, when you're always alone, you have time to think.

I miss Massachusetts.

I miss humidity which helped my hair be beautiful.

I miss my family.

I miss my friends.

I miss not knowing who I am anymore.

Since living on my own, it has opened my eyes to what I always do. 

I leave jam on the jam jar.

I always rinse the shower after I'm done.

I love talking on the phone in the dark.

I'm kind of lazy unless God motivates me.

I'm ridiculous.

Life is good.

God is gracious.

And I just hope and pray that there is something I should be learning out of all of this... 

Long Time No See

Hello World.
I love this fall weather more than words can express.
I love the leaves and trees
I love being bundled up warm and drinking hot cocoa
I love a crisp breeze and fresh air
I love life.

Silence leads to Prayer

Someone super amazing posted this photo above.

I have been thinking of it over and over and over again.

"If this isn't your castle,

you're not my prince..."

I love this photo.

Because

#1) I don't think who I was in High School is who I truly am. 

(BiG shocker right?)

#2) I love color, but I love simplicity and darker shades.

I LoVE to be happy/joyful and friendly.

BUT. 

I love to be quiet and still and .. quiet.

Mother Teresa once said: Silence leads to prayer.

I need prayer.

PRAY FOR ME.

Cause this isn't what I thought.

AT ALL.

In Natick

Hi,
I'm Kelsey and I live in Natick, Mass
Every time I wake up, I think I'm on vacation.
Or on a bad vacation.
I never really thought through about how BORING and LONELY living on your own is.
My desire is to go to college. Have sweet, awesome roommates and just party
But I guess I've done to much of that already.
So I live in Natick.
Cute little town, full of cute people.
I wish I could show you pictures but since I'm on the library computer.. I can't.
I don't know when I'll get the chance to blog again, but just know one thing.
Everything and anything in my life that has gone right or even wrong,
is because God wanted me there.
I am where I am supposed to be.
Even if I'm misirable.
I'm thankful.

Off to see the world...

Sometimes, you grow up.

But just a little bit.

Right now in my life, I think I'm going to have to grow up...

But just a little bit.

ADVENTURE

is just around the corner....

Only 8 more days!!!

Word Barf.

There is so much on my mind that i seriously don't know where to start.

;aldsfjkasldkfjasldkfbnabsdf

In case you didn't see my previous post, I'm moving to Boston.

I need to pack/clean out everything/pack some more.

I need to get my wisdom teeth taken out.

I need to buy my airline ticket.

I need to bribe my Dad to buy it for me.

I need to say good-bye to everyone.

I need to cry about leaving.

Cause I haven't yet, and it feels like it's stuck inside me.

Weird, I know.

wnuvpasdfkla;sdfjkal;sdfj

I'm such an addictive personality. 

I seriously wonder what is wrong with me at times...

The Bachelorette, Psych, Monk, Lie to me, Quantum Leap.. 

You name it, I've been addicted.

asdfiouqnmvl;as;dlfkjaskldf;uw.

Levi left this morning/afternoon for the MTC.

I'm SUPER proud of him, but sad that he'll be gone.

BUT! Before he left, we got to go to the temple and he confirm/baptized me!

I have always loved going to the temple with him.

as;dlfkjwieurnm;vaneea

I LOVE TO LAUGH.

Everytime I can make someone laugh, or visa versa, my WHOLE day is 100x better.

I made my grandma do the "snort" laugh (you know what i'm talking about?)

and I loved it! I miss her a TON.

Even if she doesn't want me to marry a Mexican or black man.

ieruqpnv,qiwepiuascfdsafasdfalksdj

My friends are amazing.

Every single one.

I am overly blessed.

Sometimes I wonder, "Would I be MY friend if I wasn't me?"

Does that make sense?

Every part of my personality can come to life with different individuals!

My Psych Buddy.

My Teacher of Greatness.

My All-Day-Everyday-and-Still-Loving-it Sister.

My Secret Lover. (you know who you are..Mykaka)

I am just SOOOOOOO grateful for my friends.

uencka;sdfiuyqnm;ldskfjuienjkal;sdfasdfasdfiouamasdnfasdkfhasdjklfahsdjklfhasdjklfh

Thanks everyone.

Advancing...

So much change.

differences.

revolutions and transformations.

1st off.

I'M MOVING TO BOSTON, MASSACHUSETTS.

Or just west of it, in a little town called Natick.

I will be a Nanny Part-Time, and need to find another job out there!

I'm soooooo excited for this missionary/worldy/romantic experience!

I'm so oober blessed!

2nd thing on my mind.

BEST FRIEND GOING ON MISSION.

What do most people do when their best friend leaves them for two years?!

3rd thing.

MY ENTIRE WORLD IS CHANGING.

When Elder.Pants leaves,

Then goes Kay Kay to the far off unknown.

Then Netty to school!!

I don't know if I can handle all this.. CHANGE

But I'm trying.

Anything is possible as long as God's on your side.

Obsessed

Since the first day of 8th grade,

I knew I wanted this black girl to be my best friend.

And... I usually get what I want :)

From the beginning, 

we have been through everything.

literally..

EVERYTHING.

She makes me laugh harder than anyone in the entire world.

(and that's a lot of people!)

Thanks my dearest friend.

You are fabulous.

GRACIAS.

An Invite for Bug Bites

 Idaho is beautiful.

Usually, when I think of Idaho, I think Napeloen Dynamite.

Dirt. Llamas and Pedro.

But 3 hours north of Idaho Falls, is the most beautiful scenery I have ever seen!

I didn't get to go inside, but I saw the Idaho Falls temple...

STUNNING!

Where we camped was very close to a small town called Hailey.

1/2 of it is owned by Bruce Willis!

Tons of famous people have cabins and summer homes up near that area!

One of them = Tom Hanks.

Below: Picture of a drive by shooting of his home:

It took 6 hours from Springville to get to where we were going.

So of course, I kept myself busy by doodling.

Here is an example of the doodles that I doodled:

When we got there, at the cabin.

I think a radar went out to all the bugs:

"Fresh Meat!!!"

(also known as... ME.)

You may think the below image is of my elbow.

NOPE. It's my very first bug bite/s

As most of you know, I am planning on being a Nanny this coming fall

(which I am VERY excited for!)

So throughout this entire week, I was with the children for most of the time.

My heart felt so... FULL.

Below are some photos of the precious angels.

(who weren't always precious!)

They were very ... cute.

One thing that I did with the older kids, was draw pictures on their fingers!

(genius right!!?)

They loved doing that! 

All in all,

Learning Experience.

But good, I just continued in reading my scriptures DAY & NIGHT 

I didn't want to chance anything :)

If you have never gone to Idaho.

Do it.

It's worth it.

Go with the flow

It's 3:03am.
I'm sitting all alone in my dark house with only the typing of keys and blowing fan to keep me awake.
I am utterly exhausted, sunburned and with a head cold to boot.
One word,
Idaho.
(sorry guys, not Wyoming! haha)
I'll have pictures to show and stories to tell,
but for right now, I just wanted to say a little something about God.

Honestly, those who know me, know that I dislike hiking/camping/out-doors-dirty-stuff

but for some reason, when Michelle asked me to go to her family reunion up in Idaho,

I said yes.

For sure, I wouldn't do it again anytime soon....

But I'm grateful for the experience and to learn more personally that God is always watching out for me.

ALWAYS.

Every single day when I awoke to the sun shining through my tent, it was a day to be......... alive.

On one of the days, I went for a walk on my own.

I was sitting beside this BEAUTIFUL stream that just kept saying to me...

"Go with the Flow."

Just like that, 

"Go with the Flow."

So, to make a long post short, That is my goal ---->  TO GO WITH THE FLOW.

Giraffa Camelopardalis

I think I am in love.

Don't be too shocked because it has been a long time in the making.

But seriously, I LOVE giraffes. 

I want to own one.

Or two.

Maybe a herd.

Pennies for Plasma

When I was born,
(19 years ago from tomorrow)
There were many complications and my mother almost died.
But because of 4 pints of a blood transfusion from members of my families ward,
She lived.
And I did as well.

Today I had the privilege to save lives.
I donated my plasma.
It was a very rigorous process, but in the end, I felt extremely thankful to my Heavenly Father.
We are SO SO blessed.
How much do we take for granted?

"An ounce of blood is worth more than a pound of friendship." -Spanish Proverb

UP

Sometimes, Utah is extremely lame.
And other times, you can find some pretty cool things to do/see.
This is one of the amazing things... CLICK HERE!!!

Books change things

Have you ever read a book and realized that your view of the world is suddenly shifted?
Everytime I read the Book of Mormon, I always feel better.
Everytime I read Seven Habits of Highly Effective Teens, I realized what I can work on.
Everytime I read Goose Girl, I just feel happy about love and life.

This time, it's called The Alchemist.

"All you have to do is contemplate a simple grain of sane, and you will see in it all the marvels of creation. Listen to your heart. It knows all things, because it came from the Soul of the World, and it will one day return there."

"I don't live in either my past or my future. I'm interested only in the present. If you can concentrate always on the present, you'll be a happy man. Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we're living now."

“Remember that wherever your heart is, there you will find your treasure.” You’ve got to find the treasure, so 

that everything you have learned along the way can make sense."

“When you are in love, things make even more sense, he thought.”

“Courage is the quality most essential to understanding the Language of the World."

My favorite quote from the entire book:

“When each day is the same as the next, it’s because people fail to recognize the good things that happen in their lives every day that the sun rises.”

Everybody should read this book. 

It will change your life.

Camel-Lynn

At this very moment, my family is driving to the airport to drop off my older sister.

Kam-Bam.

It's a weird feeling because I've had it over and over again.

She is moving to Massachusetts and might be gone for a loooong time.

But even after all of the many times that she has left, I still feel sad about it.

Kam cried when she hugged me good-bye.

Wow. I love her.

I remember the summer she was 16.

She worked at a summer-girl-camp and was gone all throughout the week, 

then come home on weekends. 

But this summer (I must of been turning 14) was grandparent summer.

I had been staying with my Grams & Rodge and because of complications, 

didn't come home for about a month.

Anyways.

When I finally got home, my Mom took me to pick up Kam for the weekend.

I'll always remember this moment.

Right when we saw eachother, we burst into tears.

It was the first time we had been apart for so long.

We just hugged and hugged.

She smelled of camp-fire and tacos.

But I still held on to her.

Cherish your families.

We never know how long we have to be together.

"Our most basic instinct is not for survival but for family. 

 Most of us would give our own life for the survival of a family member, 

yet we lead our daily life too often as if we take our family for granted."

Everybody has a laughing place

"Laughter gives us distance.
It allows us to step back from an event,
deal with it and then move on."

I'm going to be honest, cause honesty is the best policy.
Life has been hard lately.
Everyday takes effort for me.
What I'm lacking = Ambition.
My entire life has felt like a desire to do what God wants me to do.
But it seems like God wants ME to decide what I want.
And here is the problem.
I want to get an education.
I want to go on a mission.
I want to get married in the temple.
I want to raise a family.

Now is the problem..... $$
My heart seems to be braking. I want to go to school SO BAD.
And yet, I wasn't planning on SVU to bankrupt me.
I wasn't planning on going anywhere BUT SVU.
I wasn't planning on being a failure in life.
;laksjdfka;jsdklfjkasdjfkmanl;dkfiuwioeprioasdfasdfa

But this isn't supposed to be a depressing post.
Life is good.
Life is sweet.
"An optimist laughs to forget, a pessimist forgets to laugh."
I've been trying to forget my problems, and so I laugh.
Here is the good news people:
In the past two days, I haven't laughed as hard as I did, for more than a year.
Laughter can create happiness and I am happy.
Confused, a tad worried, and ambition-less.
But happy.
Thank-you Moo-Mo & Netty.

Psych-o

The hit T.V. show .. Psych

aka my new obsession!

A friend of mine let me borrow their entire 3rd season.. sooo that's what I've been doing.

psych.

PSyCH

pyscho.

Try it out,

it's the bestest.

"I want some pancakes. 

Who wants pancakes? 

Whipped butter, maple syrup - what?!"

melancholy

Pros:

1. My family loves me
2. I am very talented
3. God knows what's up. 
4. I did a load of laundry
5. I've graduated high school

Cons:

1. Officially declined my scholarships from Southern Virginia University
2. Decided no for Weber State
3. Have no summer job
4. Feeling a tad lonely
5. Have no plans for the future
6. Hopeless and confused.

Papa Dog

Today i kept a secret!

I surprised my Dad by giving a Father's Day talk during church.

I wrote it this morning and was running late for church, but everything worked out perfectly.

and I wasn't even nervous.

This is right when I was born 

Kendra and I along with Daddy.

(a lot of our pictures look like this!) 

My Dad and I... 

All grown up and going to Prom.

Thanks Dad for being one in a million.

I owe everything to you.

I'm glad I was lucky enough to have YOU as a father.

I love you.