Everybody has a laughing place

"Laughter gives us distance.
It allows us to step back from an event,
deal with it and then move on."

I'm going to be honest, cause honesty is the best policy.
Life has been hard lately.
Everyday takes effort for me.
What I'm lacking = Ambition.
My entire life has felt like a desire to do what God wants me to do.
But it seems like God wants ME to decide what I want.
And here is the problem.
I want to get an education.
I want to go on a mission.
I want to get married in the temple.
I want to raise a family.

Now is the problem..... $$
My heart seems to be braking. I want to go to school SO BAD.
And yet, I wasn't planning on SVU to bankrupt me.
I wasn't planning on going anywhere BUT SVU.
I wasn't planning on being a failure in life.
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But this isn't supposed to be a depressing post.
Life is good.
Life is sweet.
"An optimist laughs to forget, a pessimist forgets to laugh."
I've been trying to forget my problems, and so I laugh.
Here is the good news people:
In the past two days, I haven't laughed as hard as I did, for more than a year.
Laughter can create happiness and I am happy.
Confused, a tad worried, and ambition-less.
But happy.
Thank-you Moo-Mo & Netty.

melancholy

Pros:

1. My family loves me
2. I am very talented
3. God knows what's up. 
4. I did a load of laundry
5. I've graduated high school

Cons:

1. Officially declined my scholarships from Southern Virginia University
2. Decided no for Weber State
3. Have no summer job
4. Feeling a tad lonely
5. Have no plans for the future
6. Hopeless and confused.

Ecstatic Part2

I don't think I did my last post justice.

NOTHING has ever been this.. fulfilling in my entire life.

A dream has actually COME TRUE.

My whole life I have spent being stressed, overwhelmed and OCD about my grades.

And it has paid off!

The funniest part is.. I never believed that it actually WOULD pay off.

If I could only describe my feelings of enthusiasm. of complete JOY.

Gratitude is surrounding my entire being because god cares about me.

He knew EXACTLY what I needed, what I wanted and here it is.

I'm crying from .. complete happiness. No words can even come close to how I feel.

I am accepted to Southern Virgina University.

Yeah, you heard that right. ME. KELSEY ANNE.

It's 1:00 in the morning and I'm grinning from the inside out.

My cheeks hurt.

Because I am amazing and can do anything I put my mind to, with god's help.

THANK YOU.